the whisper

the music speaks to me and the wind is whispering in my ears and people i didn't expect poke their heads in on my life, and i like it, i like when it all feels in sync like this. and i realized again something i already knew, but i guess what i realized i'm not ready to share...maybe because it's so new i can't quite put it into words. it's still there on the edge. marinating. still forming. an unborn fetus. how can tonight feel different from the last? it's the same scenario, almost exactly. except my mind. my attitude. change your mind.

cold and grey again

i wonder...if it were sunny would i be sitting in a recliner watching the view?

i want it all

i want to live in duluth where i'm surrounded by wonderful friends and large amounts of security

i want to move someplace new that will challenge me and force me to learn new things about myself

i want to buy a house that i know i will live in for the rest of my life

i want to sell all my belongings and live out of the back of my truck

i want to live somewhere tropical

i want to snowboard more

i want financial security

i want to work less than 20 hours a week

i want to be social

i want to be reclusive

i want so much

and i don't want to live in between anymore