2009

i am coming down from nights spent sleepless. the rush of the season. overindulgence. a hectic schedule. i am feeling elated from nights spent on superior. a new year. endless laughter. good friends. i am thinking about what lies around the corner. creating things. being easier on myself. i am searching for a new pair of earrings. a quiet mind. new experiences. i think i will blog more. stop procrastinating. live in the moment.

the most wonderful time of the year

here i am again. another holiday season. i'm trying to remain positive and remember despite what happens to our society this time of year, that this is season for joy, charity and gratitude. within all this chaos i hope to find a space where i can meditate on all the goodness in the world and try to perpetuate more of it. i want to enter each day as i would a new year...full of hope, dreams and a longing to do better.

wannabe

well we have the internet now and my head is spinning again. so it works out perfect... i can once again write profound or non-sensical things. i can write about how for the first time in a long time i feel really content, but for some reason i feel guilty about it. my identity for so long has been fueled by a drive towards change and now i don't want to change. i just wanna be. and i want to be okay with that. will i ever be okay with that?

what? it's only been 4 months!

chris spilled a beer on our computer.
we moved to a new home that we love.
we got a cat.
it's snowing today.
we want to go back to the grand canyon in the spring...or maybe bali.

mound of emotions

it's weird to be packing my stuff. the stuff that's been here in this place for three years. the longest my stuff has stayed in one place since childhood. it's weird to hold in my hands all these things that i've acquired. flashes of the last three years good and bad, they're all here again, being brought back to the surface. this is why i think change is so important. challenge yourself. step away from your norm. there is so much we hide from ourselves. without change we just keep piling things up...we don't even realize the mound of emotions we're riding on top of. i feel all stirred up inside. there is no other way to describe it. it's like the pit in my stomach, that i didn't even realize was there, is movin' around and workin' it's way out. it'll all work out.

changes (ch ch ch changes)

some things are brewing.
changing.
morphing.
it's exciting. i've always thrived on change.
but i haven't experienced much change lately.
and as this opportunity presented itself...i almost shyed away.
instead i will embrace it, and see exactly how much this change will really change me.

this weekend...

i can't wait to spend several days and nights overlooking lake superior, drinking whiskey, and spending time with some of the most incredible people i know.