is it enough?

today i feel the burden of my lifestyle on this world.
eating food, unaware of it's origin.
my trash is on the curb, do i know where it goes?
my clothes very likely made in inhumane circumstances.
the products that i use toxic to myself, the earth.
drinking coffee from a paper cup.


i try.
i try to eat local food.
minimize my waste.
use environmentally safe products.
i wear my clothes until they fall apart.

some days these things make me feel better about myself.

today i realize it's not enough.

out like a lamb

with the warmth comes the awakening. with the sun comes a smile. march brings the laying out of plans for adventures. dreams of park point. daylight extending beyond 5pm. i sense my motivation returning.

it seems the seasons have become the drive behind this blog.

i guess that's what happens.

when you live in duluth.

when you LIVE.



in duluth.

delightful and crazy

i live in a place with dramatic seasons. it's easy to embrace the season mid-july. barefeet, rising and setting with the sun. energy seems boundless. time is of no issue. our skin is tanned and our muscles toned. faces smile, bathed in the glow of the moon rising over lake superior. all senses are stimulated with the beauty of summer on a body of water in a city filled with people, good food, good beer, warm breezes, sweet smells.

now it is winter. much time is spent in a chair by the fire. somehow 10pm is past my bedtime. my skin has paled. i don't see my friends as much. i cherish the time i have alone. i read a book a week. i cook all of our meals at home. i have excellent relationships with my pets. the house is clean. i put my pajamas on at 6pm. when the temps rise above 12 degrees i venture out. time outside is always brief. and by the end you find yourself anticipating the comfort of a warm cup of tea. and the chair by the fire.



it is delightful and crazy to live in a place like this.

2009

i am coming down from nights spent sleepless. the rush of the season. overindulgence. a hectic schedule. i am feeling elated from nights spent on superior. a new year. endless laughter. good friends. i am thinking about what lies around the corner. creating things. being easier on myself. i am searching for a new pair of earrings. a quiet mind. new experiences. i think i will blog more. stop procrastinating. live in the moment.

the most wonderful time of the year

here i am again. another holiday season. i'm trying to remain positive and remember despite what happens to our society this time of year, that this is season for joy, charity and gratitude. within all this chaos i hope to find a space where i can meditate on all the goodness in the world and try to perpetuate more of it. i want to enter each day as i would a new year...full of hope, dreams and a longing to do better.

wannabe

well we have the internet now and my head is spinning again. so it works out perfect... i can once again write profound or non-sensical things. i can write about how for the first time in a long time i feel really content, but for some reason i feel guilty about it. my identity for so long has been fueled by a drive towards change and now i don't want to change. i just wanna be. and i want to be okay with that. will i ever be okay with that?

what? it's only been 4 months!

chris spilled a beer on our computer.
we moved to a new home that we love.
we got a cat.
it's snowing today.
we want to go back to the grand canyon in the spring...or maybe bali.