changes (ch ch ch changes)

some things are brewing.
changing.
morphing.
it's exciting. i've always thrived on change.
but i haven't experienced much change lately.
and as this opportunity presented itself...i almost shyed away.
instead i will embrace it, and see exactly how much this change will really change me.

this weekend...

i can't wait to spend several days and nights overlooking lake superior, drinking whiskey, and spending time with some of the most incredible people i know.

the whisper

the music speaks to me and the wind is whispering in my ears and people i didn't expect poke their heads in on my life, and i like it, i like when it all feels in sync like this. and i realized again something i already knew, but i guess what i realized i'm not ready to share...maybe because it's so new i can't quite put it into words. it's still there on the edge. marinating. still forming. an unborn fetus. how can tonight feel different from the last? it's the same scenario, almost exactly. except my mind. my attitude. change your mind.

cold and grey again

i wonder...if it were sunny would i be sitting in a recliner watching the view?

i want it all

i want to live in duluth where i'm surrounded by wonderful friends and large amounts of security

i want to move someplace new that will challenge me and force me to learn new things about myself

i want to buy a house that i know i will live in for the rest of my life

i want to sell all my belongings and live out of the back of my truck

i want to live somewhere tropical

i want to snowboard more

i want financial security

i want to work less than 20 hours a week

i want to be social

i want to be reclusive

i want so much

and i don't want to live in between anymore

it seems like i've been here too long

how long can you live on the cusp of realizing your potential before you become it or give up on it????

hawaii

it felt good to be warm.
it felt good to be with amazing friends.
it felt good to laugh my ass off.
it felt good to eat fresh fresh fruit.
it felt good to be salty.
it felt good to sleep on sand.
it felt good...