see!

it was a good day. it's always good to see old friends. comfortable friends. friends who are very very different from you, but that's okay. you've already dealt with that, and now when you're together you can just be. it's a good day when you see duluth through the eyes of someone who used to live here and loved it and misses it. it's good to see duluth through their eyes because it makes me see. sometimes i forget to see. far too often i forget to see. i need to focus on seeing. living in the moment in and living beautifully are art forms. they take a lot of practice, and can never truly be complete. i hope i can always remember to live in the moment. consciously. i'm not saying i always want to be happy. i certainly don't want that. if you're not angry about things...you're not living. there is a lot to be angry about. i hope people can learn how to experience that anger, ride it out, come to terms, act on it, feel it, release it. same with love, regret, joy, lust, jealously. let's live. let's be real. let's turn off our t.v.s our computers our mindless banter our shopping malls our dead-end jobs...let's just for one second prioritize. let's embrace who and what we are and where we came from. i am going to a funeral tomorrow. i will see lots of family that i haven't seen in years. i have no excuse...they live close. are they where i came from? why are we together only in times of death? i'm realizing i don't know death. i haven't faced it or explored it or experienced it. i'm not sure i know what i'm feeling. is it possible to experience a new emotion in your late twenties? i guess anything is possible...at least that's what they say.